August was never our month

Sometimes you have to say goodbye to the one person you thought you’d spend forever with.

No matter how much you truly care about someone, sometimes it just doesn’t work out. No matter how hard you fight for someone, sometimes there is nothing more you can do when they look you in the eye and tell you they don’t know if they love you anymore. Sometimes after you give all you have, there’s truly nothing left. Loving someone isn’t always enough.

Humans are often motivated by fear; the fear of the unknown, fear of change, the fear of ending up alone. And that fear can cause us to settle. To resent the very thing we are trying so hard to keep. How many times does the universe have to show you, if you struggle so hard to keep something, it was never really yours to begin with?

“Loss of control is always the source of fear. It is also, however, always the source of change.”
–James Frey

And then there’s the fear of facing the fact that maybe we deserve better.

When my grandma passed away at the age of 84 this past May, my grieving grandpa said something that resonated within me: “Sixty-three years I spent with her, and it still wasn’t enough.” That is the love I want. That is the love I deserve.

In the end, there is only one person you are absolutely guaranteed to spend forever with, and that person is you. So when it comes down to losing someone, we all eventually have to trust that we will make it through. And trust, that in taking care of the person you do have to spend forever with, you will welcome love back into your life.

I won’t let you giving up on me mean that I should give up on myself.

Just because you don’t love me, that doesn’t make me unlovable.

I will repeat these words when the thought of losing you makes me sad. I will repeat these words, over and over again, until they become my only truth.

I am going to be fine. I will get through this. And I will be better for it. I will find somebody out there who treats me the way I deserve to be treated, who showers me with the love you never wanted to show me. And in a few months, when you realize [again] what you lost, this time I won’t be there.

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The unintended side effect of adding protein powder to your diet

I decided to add a powdered whey protein isolate into my diet when I went from 2 muscle training classes and one cardio session per week, to 3 muscle training classes and no cardio per week, to 3 muscle training classes and a boot camp conditioning class every week. I figured with my increase in exercise and lack of any actual protein in my diet, adding some in the morning/post workout couldn’t hurt. I didn’t notice much of a difference at first until I started making these bomb recovery shakes after my boot camp class and realized I was less sore when I woke up the next day. So that was pretty cool.

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I’ve been drinking at least one scoop of protein each day with 4-6oz of vanilla almond milk for the last month. In the past week or so I noticed an unintended side effect of this magical supplement.

I have thick hair. And a lot of it. I’ve been using this fall fight shampoo and conditioner by Garnier for probably about a year now and only continue to use it because it smells good and for some reason my hair is not getting used to it. You know like when you use a shampoo and condition combo for too long, it stops making your hair look good so you have to switch?  Right. Okay. Anyway, I was still shedding like a mofo. I only wash my hair three days a week and each time I’d scoop clumps of hair out of the drain after the shower. It was so annoying! And not to mention the time I completely fried my hair a month ago because one plate on my hair straightener broke. So, between this fall fight crap and the keratin leave in conditioner I was using to repair the damage to my hair, I still lost quite a bit of hair to breakage daily with no idea how to prevent it. But we’re girls, we just deal with shit like that, right? Wrong. Enter in a month of drinking protein.

In the last week I’ve noticed that I am shedding less and less in the shower, on my pillow at night, and in my every day activities. I looked it up and it’s actually legit: upping the protein in your diet can prevent breakage, allow your hair to grow faster, stay attached to your head longer, and be healthier and stronger overall. And if you think as a girl combining protein and weightlifting will make you bulky, you’re out of your mind but that’s another rant for another day. It’s not only good for your bod and your post workout recovery, but it can help your hair grow stronger and more beautiful, and who wouldn’t want that?!

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