Wisdom tells me I am nothing. Love tells me I am everything. Between the two my life flows.
Hi, um, YES.
The full moon in Scorpio over the weekend had this double Scorpio thoroughly off of her rocker. Before I had any clue a full moon was approaching (let alone one in Scorpio), someone asked me if I took speed prior to going out Friday night. Mind you, I was completely sober when I was asked. I felt hyperactive—equally embracing and also reeling over all these feelings I had about everything going on in my life. I just felt off all weekend. Not in a bad way, just in a weird way. Initially, I credited it to the fact that I do have a lot going on in my life currently. However, soon enough I realized I could thank the universe (at least partly) for causing my crazy to hit overdrive. The full moon in Scorpio is always an emotionally-charged one, and all I can say is the experience, followed by my awareness of the situation, was fucking cathartic.
[Side note: If you don’t know what I mean by being a “double Scorpio,” it means both my sun sign (aka, the sign you probably consider yourself) and my rising sign are Scorpio… making me more intense than your average Scorpio. I’m also a Virgo moon. Any full or new moon in your sign (sun, rising or moon) causes you to experience the event more intensely than any of the other signs do. Oh btw, I buy into the actual study of all this crap now. Your natal chart is everything… if you haven’t tried this yet, go here and figure that shit out. Learn something about yourself. Let the universe put you in your place for a change.]
I read today that Scorpio is considered the all-or-nothing sign. It’s alarming how many times I have expressed that mentality to my friends and family over the years, down to describing my preference in pizza toppings. (I want either plain cheese or full on supreme. Nothing in between.) I’m all or nothing in relationships too—both romantic and platonic. Either you’re there for me or you’re not. And if I sense in any capacity that you’re only half-in, then I’m all out. There is no grey area for me, ever. I either want it or I don’t, I love it or I hate it, I’m completely content or utterly dissatisfied. I had no idea this was a character trait of my sign until I read it here today while preparing this post.
In the wake of some major changes looming on the horizon for me, it’s also a good time to remind everyone that Mercury goes into retrograde May 18th. I’m hoping I’ll have my shit together and all tucked away before that since a retrograde is not the best time to enter into new contracts, relationships, etc. I’m keeping the faith, though, that retrograde or not, I have the ability to turn what I want into reality.
According to astrologer Molly Hall, “Instead of checking out, [Scorpios] gain soul power by withstanding, and being creative where we can, in the face of adversity. True confidence emerges when there’s nothing to fear within or without.” Ya heard?
In other news, I joined a summer volleyball league yesterday. I figure, I can keep complaining, year after year, about how much I miss playing, or I can actually do something about it. It should be a fun time with friends and a great way to get outside and stay active this summer! Hopefully this summer will hold a lot of new adventures… I’m going into it with an open mind and with the mindset that I can sleep when it’s winter.